I sooooo wish I could say how I feel but here is a summery:

I love 3 people very much but only as friends and these 3 people are having major love "issues" and it is just confusing the hell out of me because now it is a fucking love square!!  Everybody has feelings for everybody and all of this is starting to unfold  as I write this..............*sigh* OMG!!!  How can this happen??  How come the people who are completely right for eachother can't be together??  How come everything is all twisted and opposite??  I can't be around this anymore....it just confuses me and drives me crazy.  For so long I have lied about it to not get others mad but I can't help how I feel and I feel bad because I know that no matter what sombody is going to get their heart stomped on and that sucks because I care about that person sooooo much and I always will.  I feel lost and confused because my heart has been toy'd with for so long.  The people I love the most love sombody else and don't realize that the other person that they love can't make up their mind on who to love.  I think all of this is solved now but it is still driving me crazy because 2 people are now upset over this and 1 person dosn't even know about it yet!!!  Im probably rambling to most of you but sombody may understand what I am saying.  This is like some fucking twisted movie and 1 person is just playing with everyone to see how they react.  It is almost like cat and mouse bondage style.